I feel like I've lost my creativity. Or, maybe I never had it. Or, maybe I'm trying to do it the wrong way.

I'm supposed to be a painter. I love the feeling of spreading color, mixing it to create tone and shadow and form.

Most paintings are so boring! Still lifes? Gross!

I love the manga art style. Does that go so well with oil painting? Ha, don't think so. At least, I've not seen many "irresponsible drawings" done in oil... oil's not really a medium that lends to that... or is it?

I think I'm just going about this in the wrong way. I love painting. I love oil, the smell, how it handles... I love characters and manga. That's what I need to do.

Now the question is, original or copied? And, I really need to practice drawing since it's all drawing based. Grrr... drawing frustrates me. Maybe I should flip the switch in my mind so drawing feels more like painting.

Mmmm... Stargate. Another thing I love. Should I?

Edit: Or, maybe I should paint with words?